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june

section titled june
watching
kamen rider gavv S01
reading
carson gross et. al's hypermedia systems, my comic pull list
listening
NMIXX, pink pantheress, KATSEYE, juice=juice, aespa, ANGERME

i am DESPERATELY trying to lock in. oh my god i am seemingly incapable of locking the fuck in. but i am hoping to change that, even if i have to grit my teeth and fight through the haze and make myself do things. i've been trying to be more productive in multiple ways:

  • organizing my obsidian vault to better suit my needs (such as utilizing the full calendar plugin to re-integrate a calendar into my work flow)
  • trying to go outside more often to re-center myself (sarcastically: who knew that going outside more often than once every 1-2 weeks would help?!)
  • regularly attending therapy sessions, even with an irregular schedule due to extenuating circumstances
  • and, similar to the first point, trying to stay organized, IRL and online. i've tried to clean off my desk to have a work space that doesn't overwhelm me (still making progress on that though...), and i've been meticulously organizing my online bookmarks so i can search through them faster.
so far, i... haven't had much success with any of this. i'm still painfully scattered and frustrated at my inability to focus. but i'm hoping my efforts are at least setting the stage for a me that's more in control.

in other news, i've really been enjoying the new KATSEYE release, especially the song gameboy! i had a lot of thoughts on it that i shared on tumblr. i've also enjoyed the aespa dirty work comeback, the ALL DAY PROJECT debut (which i also had thoughts on) but mostly because bailey sok (my long time favorite dancer!) is a member, and i'm looking forward to all the comebacks that july will bring.